Yes, here I am blogging on vacation! I took a nap before dinner so I'm not really tired and my hubby is sick and sleeping, so here I am. I have a few things on my mind, so here it goes.
Having a boy and a family has been on my mind a lot the past week. When we were first trying to get pregnant we pretty much knew that we were going to have a girl, so I got really geared up for a girl. We had the name picked out, I had the nursery decorated in my mind and then we found out that we were having a boy. I was depressed at first and sad. But the past week or so I have been really happy that we are having a boy. Girls are drama and high maintenance and I don't think that I am ready to have a daughter at this point in my life. Chris is getting excited to teach our boy how to play baseball and other sports. I have already told Chris that he gets to potty train him, I just can't do it!
I have felt Conner move around lots and Chris and my dad have been able to feel him as well. It is really cool to know that my child is growing inside of me and will be here in a few short months. I am not going to lie, I am terrified!!! I know that my whole life is going to change and that my relationship with Chris is going to change and it scares me. I am afraid of being solely responsible for another human being and providing for that being and that freaks me out! I worry that I won't be a good enough mom, but I know that Chris will be an amazing dad. I worry about what things to teach him and how to teach him those things.
Aside from all of my worries and fears, I feel truly blessed to be experiencing this pregnancy and experience. I turn 25 this year and thought that by now I would be done having kids. But I am glad that things are happening at this point in my life. I am anxious to start this next phase in our life and I am very excited to meet our son!