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Anxiety

Anxiety: is a psychological and physiological state characterized by somatic, emotional, cognitive, and behavioral components. Anxiety can create feelings of fear, worry, uneasiness and dread.

I have anxiety. I haven't always had it though. It started when I got pregnant and grew worse when I gave birth.

I have anxiety at night as I try and fall asleep. I lay awake at night worrying about everything from the bills, to what chores need to be done, what is going on the next day, did I brush Conner's teeth that day, is Conner growing up ok, Am I an awful parent because my child drink diet coke and doesn't eat vegetables, etc... This prevents me from actually falling asleep until after midnight. I'm pretty used to this schedule and just know that my mind and body won't be getting sleep until after 12!

I have (the worst) anxiety when I have to take Conner somewhere by myself, anywhere, like the grocery store, the park, Target, etc. Conner is a good kid and I can control him so I don't know why I get it so bad. Maybe it's the thought that he could run off and get lost or taken by someone, maybe it's the thought that he will break something in the store, I just don't know. But I really hate taking Conner anywhere by myself. I will usually make my hubby go to the store with me or watch Conner while I go. And if my hubby isn't home I will usually have someone watch him so I can to the store. Very rarely do I take him with me.

I don't have any physical side effects from my anxiety though (like sweating or anything). I don't think that I need medication for my anxiety, yet. I think it's just a healthy amount of anxiety that I get (is that possible), but maybe I'm wrong. Does anyone else have anxiety or am I just crazy?

1 Year Difference

21

Conner is 21 months old today! This month has been a big growing month for Conner, not really physically but intellectually. He has learned a lot of new words and especially this past week. I had the past week off work and it was amazing to spend so much time with Conner and to see him learn new things each day! Conner is such an amazing part of our lives and we love him so, so much!

NOTE: He is too active to get good pictures of right now. Most of the recent pics are him sleeping!

At 21 Months Conner:

-Wears size 4 diapers, 2T tops, 18 and some 24 month bottoms, size 6 shoes

-Has not been eating well lately. He hasn't tried any new foods and is more into snacking than eating actual meals (maybe due to the heat). But he is loving that watermelon is in season! He has also rediscovered orange juice and prefers that over apple juice right now.

-Loves to put the food and water on the porch in the morning for the dog.

-Loves to stand on the porch and watch for airplanes! Our house is relatively close to the airport so he sees a lot of them.

-Loves to be outdoors!

-Loves to take our hand and lead us to what he wants us to look at or get for him.

-New words: star, slide, shoes, cold, owl, down, cars , eyes, mouth, nose, head. He also says "I spilled", Iss Good (puts on extra s on is), Iss cold. He also says "No, No, No!" It can't just be 1 No.

-Still drinking 1 bottle at night.

-Knows some colors. His cousins have a toy that has different colored balls on top and you hit them and they slide down a track. He can put the balls in the correct colored slots! I haven't even tried teaching him colors, so I'm not really sure where he learned them, but he knows them!

-Has to have 2 of everything. 2 suckers, 2 utensils, 2 cups, 2 blankets, 2 frogs (his cloth toy that he sleeps with).

-And is still the cutest thing in the world and he knows it!

6

6 years ago today I married my best friend, the love of my life, my partner, my husband!

And I could not be happier! Happy Anniversary Baby!

Dentist

On May 20th Conner had his first trip to the dentist! The office was amazing and so child friendly and our dentist was great with Conner! Conner has no cavities and has 2 teeth coming in and everything looks great. I need to work a little harder at brushing Conner's teeth every day and actually brushing them and not just letting him suck the toothpaste! And despite his face in the picture, he actually did great! He even got to pick a toy at the end of the visit and he chose a bouncy ball!